Constant rejections losing hope

I applied for pupillage for the first time this year (UK hunger games to get a placement to qualify as an advocate). Spent literally weeks perfecting my applications alongside doing the bar course and working full time, trying to be an adult alone in London. My parents don’t really get how challenging it is. I’m a first gen immigrant and oldest daughter of 4 kids. I received 3 rejections so far. I’m hearing friends and peers getting interviews and I just don’t understand what I’m doing wrong. I’m not a cocky person at all but after giving it my absolute all in those applications I was confident I would get a few interviews at least. I have a first in my undergrad and postgrad in law, an inns scholarship, work experience, published article. It’s really knocked my confidence and I feel so embarrassed as all my friends and colleagues keep asking me about updates on the process and I’m having to admit I’ve gotten nowhere yet.

Separately I started dating a guy in January. The first guy I genuinely enjoyed hanging out with since an awful breakup last year summer. He showed a lot of green flags, was v attentive and made it clear from the get go he was looking for something long term and we were exclusive. Over the last 3 weeks he has cancelled dates, not initiated a phone call (I’ve asked a few times) and been giving slow replies. I’ve explicitly brought up my concerns a couple of times and asked if anything has changed and have been reassured nothing has and have been apologised to. However, I haven’t heard back from him since Monday night, we were in mid convo and the last message of his was a question.

I turned 28 last week and a few close friends forgot my birthday. I got rid of social media last year which didn’t help.

Idk I’m feeling very frustrated at everything atm bc I’ve worked really hard both professionally and personally to get to the stage where I can fund myself through bar school, apply for pupillage, go to therapy and start dating again. I’ve really shown up, worked through my anxieties and trusted the universe. Tried to be optimistic but now I just feel stupid for being excited for change. Feel stupid for thinking something great could happen both romantically and professionally. I just feel really shit. I don’t think if I’ve got anything left. I’m really trying. Everything is just disappointing.