Keep messing up class times

I’m really so furious with myself, I keep messing up my class times. The past 2 weeks my class schedule has been getting changed as my school switched Tuesday classes with wednesday classes and then Wednesday classes with Tuesday classes. I’ve been confused and have been setting my alarms wrong. I’ve paid the consequence of missing about 3 classes as a result.

I need all A’s this semester to get my gpa up for grad school as it’s my last chance. I’ve been applying to 4 internships at the same time while working and it’s been so difficult. Honestly I always fuck up at work too and either turn things in late or don’t log outs and end up making less as a result.

I’m so scared. This is my last semester and after this, I have a teaching job lined up in another country. I’m so very passionate about teaching and learning but I genuinely just struggle so bad with basic functions like showing up on time. I feel like it’s the downfall of my work even though I take it seriously.

I feel so silly unnecessarily missing class. I’m not sick or anything it’s quite literally just because for some reason today for example, I thought my class started at 5 when it’s started at 1pm for the past 3 weeks. It didn’t register in my mind until now and it’s too late to go. I am usually there and don’t forget because of it since I have morning classes but they were canceled last night.

My brain feels like scrambled eggs and I also missed a homework assignment yesterday, I have been falling behind on readings too. It quite literally feels like i’d get fired from a job because of how badly unorganized I am and it makes me so very depressed. I’m 21 and it feels like if I haven’t fixed this extremely basic foundation of showing up on time and having projects organized, then I never will and i’m invaluable in life.