I can't tolerate filing my taxes anymore.

I have at least 1 panic attack a year when trying to file my taxes due to the intrusive thoughts that flood my head, thinking about all of the possible mistakes I could make and the consequences of them, as well as if I've made any mistakes on previous returns. I'm at my lowest point right now (just got out of the psych ward) and I can't even finish filing anymore. I'm low income and have been filing using the free guided software all these years, but I've had multiple uncommon sources of income from things like gig work, advertising revenue, and research studies that I can't stop ruminating over. Did I file them correctly before? Am I filing them correctly now? Am I filing them in a consistent way year-to-year so as not to draw suspicion? Are they going to find out about so-and-so small thing I forgot to report? What are they going to do to me when they find out? I know these thoughts are irrational but how do I make them stop??????

I can't manage this anymore. I need to seek human help but I don't know where to go. I tried using the MyFreeTaxes helpline but they didn't know what to do. And I probably need to have all my previous returns looked at too (or maybe this is an OCD thought too idk). What do I do?