I want to be a scientist but university+ADHD doesn't work out
I face 2 big challenges:
- Being indecisive, having multiple different interests and therefore not knowing what to major in. Despite wthe fact that I've been thinking about this for years, I simply do not know what to study because there are too many options.
- ADHD+burnout and inability to get lots of work done: I had to quit uni 3 years ago because the amount of homework was simply too much for me. I could not keep up with the pace, didnt have enough energy and focus. Because I could not get all my homework done within the deadlines, I didn't have any good grade not even a single one.
Right now I'm just learning programming and math on my own. Roughly 8 weeks per hour, and thats already tiring enough due to my super low energy level and inability to concentrate.
But I love math and science and technology. I love learning fun and useful things. I know that I want to be a scientist or an inventor or a researcher or maybe something in IT.
When I play a videogame and a weird bug happens which gives me an advantage in the gameplay, I always try to reproduce it and spend alot of time making and testing theories about why that thing happened and how to make it happen again in a controlled environment. I wish I can do this kind of thing in real life too, but as an individual I sadly don't have a lab, a social network of scientists, or any other tools necessary. I guess a formal degree is necessary if I want access to any of those. I would also like a salary so again I think a formal degree, however I obtain it, will be necessary.
Assuming that if I made a decision about what to study... I'm considering the following options, even if I think they are bad, just listing all the possibilities I can think of:
- Just go to uni and study full-time. Bad idea though there is a 99% chance I cannot keep up with the pace due to my ADHD and recent burnout.
- Go to uni and study part-time? Like only haveing 1, 2, 3 classes per week instead of 5. And less homework per year compared to full time study. Is this possible?
- Go to uni that allows a dynamic pace, whatever my own pace will turn out to be? Is this possible?
- Sign up at one of those websites that lets me study at home and do exams and get certificates for each subject? Would this path possibly get me into science?
- Self-study or other forms of informal education, and as soon as I'm ready I can take exams in all the required subjects to prove my knowledge? Is it possible to become a scientist this way?
- Find out which subjects I will have to follow in uni, then self-teach all of them, and then sign up for the full-time uni program and go through it with ease because I already have most of the knowledge?
- Other alternatives that I haven't thought of?
I have some advantage: I'm naturally very good at math and logic reasoning. I also have an extremely curious mind, science always interests me. I find it the easiest to learn things if they truly interest me.
But the simple truth is that I have very little energy and can only get so much done per day, meaning a full time study would not work out for me at all. It would get me back into a major burnout really quickly..
All advice is welcome.
Posted Mar 12, 2025, 7:59 PM UTC