Does anyone fear they are gonna forget their loved one after they died?

My dad died last friday. He had three epileptic attacks one after the other while he was asleep in the hospital? He also had many other health issues such as diabetes 2, hypertension and cyrrhosis, but nobody knows what really caused the epilectic attacks.

I'm managing the grief: I write to my dad every day, I cry if I need to, I keep myself in touch with people.

However, my biggest fear is that one day I'm gonna forget about my dad, or that I'm gonna forget most things about him.

I admit that I always preffered my mom to him tue to having more negative moments with him. He was also very affectionate and would often seek reassurance, which annoyed me a bit. Despite all this, I still loved him very much, and tried to show him love through small actions.

I spent a lot of time together with dad when I was a kid, but growing up I started isolating myself from him (and from my mother as well).

I feel that if I forget most of my dad or the pain lessens with time maybe it means that I didn't truely loved him, despite the fact that I also showed him affection although in smaller ways.

I also fear forgetting his voice, the things he said to me, those 'I love you', 'I'm proud of you', 'You are the love of my life'.

There are so many things I would like to talk about my dad, but I don't want this to become too long.

Do you sometimes fear forgetting your dead loved ones?