First post here

Hi, im Ariel, im 17 guy becoming 18 this year, and I've recently come to the conclusion that I am asexual, I have handwaved the possibility with my friends in the past, but looking back, I think that I've always been right on that

I never had sexual attraction to others, be it with girls, guys, model womans or buff guys, my mom sometimes watched fashion shows with my dad, and he called me sometimes if I was near, going "look isn't she beatiful.." blah blah blah, and I always go "eh, sure" I recognized why they look appealing, but was never turned on by them, and I did enjoy the clothes, but this is because i design characters, so I appreciate the inspiration, tho im getting off topic

I certainly have the libido of a teenager going though puberty and "other signs", but to actually have sex with others, I never had the thought, the thought of putting my body in others or receiving anything doesnt arouse me, boy or girl, and Im not saying this cause im not 18 yet, since Im not repressing anything to not do something stupid, avoid thinking or etc, i just dont think about it and go "oh yeah~" or "shit horny, must not think", im not avoiding because its wrong, is just because it doesnt vibe with me

Also, for most of my life, my friends at school were girls, So it may have helped me with seeing girls as just other people like me, and even today, i dont feel a thing with My current friend in my school (I moved alot to be clear), the only "crushes" I had due to someone's appearence was when I was about 10-12, and I just did because i went "im a boy, this is a girl, this girl looks appealing by what I can tell by others standard so I should feel something for her, its what cartoon romance told me"

I still laugh at some immature jokes refering to intimate body parts like any teenager, but again, its just jokes, whenever I acidentally stumble with art online with that bodies part exposed (its bound to happen, and im a teenager almost adult, it doesnt effect me), I dont feel much, not averse to it, i just scroll past it, just doing fast so others dont see mee

Well, what I really want to say is, I really hope I get to see and explore more of me being like this and others experiences, hope I can be sure in being here and be happy that others may be like me and that I may have discovered myself