Sometimes I wish I was the only person on earth?

I was taking out of school at a very young age and lived in a very abusive toxic household. I'm neurodivergent and trying to break free but because of the abuse I faced throughout my childhood id use maladaptive , daydreaming to cope. I've always had bouts of derealization and depersonalization. But since I found out what maladaptive daydreaming is it's become incredibly hard for me to do it to cope anymore. which I've noticed led to a increase of derealization and depersonalization. Lately though there are times when I go outside.(live by nature) I get this thought that everyone might have disappeared like that one twilight ep. I'm taking antidepressants now and will be trying to find therapy to help with my other issues. I don't know if this is normal or other people experience this. Obviously, being the only living person on earth would be horrible but not having to not deal with people or mask my behavior or depression or the bad people and just the relief of truly being alone. It's not that I hate people I just get so drained being around them. Even people I love. Idk it's just nice to think of an "escape" but I'm worried this is just another coping mechanism like the daydreaming.