Sometimes

Sometimes, I'm yearning to hear your voice. I wish I could just call you to chat or catch up. Want to hear about everything going on with you. Hoping it's all good things, and that you're as happy as you deserve to be.

Sometimes, I wake up and when I look at all my notifications in the morning, I'm hoping to find a text from you. Just a "Hi" would make my day.

Sometimes, I spend a good portion of my time looking at pictures of you,of us. Sometimes I rewatch our videos. I wish we made more. I wish we made more good memories. As time passes, I'm growing so afraid of forgetting. Holding on to my memories of you keeps me going sometimes.

Sometimes, I think back to being in your presence, and remember what happiness truly feels like. I wish I cherished that more when I'm had it.

Sometimes, I wish I had a time machine, so I could go back and do everything better. Do everything the way I should've done it the first time. I miss you so much, and it's not just sometimes. No matter what action contradicted my feelings, I have and always will love you. I'll always miss you. I hope you're happy. I know I'm trying to be, but it's hard sometimes.

Sometimes, I think about you and hope you're not worrying about me. I'll be okay. You deserve peace. You deserve love. You deserve happiness.