I promise, if you’re struggling, there’s hope after postpartum

I just wanted to share that if you're struggling postpartum, struggling with ppd/ppa, it can get better.

I've been reflecting a lot on that lately because in two weeks, it will be the one year anniversary of when I was admitted to the psychiatric ward for a week at 11 weeks pp. It was the lowest point of my life.

I had struggled with depression in the past when my mother died but this was a whole new level. I was not in my right mind and I didn't tell anyone till it was almost too late.

Everything at the time and the months after felt like it was never ending. But it did end. The sleepless nights ended, the cluster feedings, the dangerous thoughts and emotions. The hole I thought I would never get out of, I got out. I've been out.

If you're in the trenches now, I promise you won't always be. Being a parent is the hardest job there is. Just keep holding on because even if you're at your lowest, one day you'll go to bed and think "wow, I was happy today".