1 Month In The Breakup...

I got dumped after i begged and begged her so much just to stay and said sorry for things i never did just for her to ghost me, it hurt me allot but i realized she never cared about me, and i could tell during the relationship that she didnt either. She was really sweet and would stop me from doing bad things but at the same time pretty weird. But i loved her allot and randomly out the blue one day she dumped me for me asking for her phone number? Btw our relationship was 5 months old and we knew eachother very well, she has my phone number but wouldnt give hers. I asked for it and she said stop contacting me and left. In the start couple of days i begged her allot i would cry and message her the entire day, and i thought that she would come back, but as time went on i started to slowly realize that its over and starting accepting it. At the start accepting it was extremely hard, but as some days and weeks went on it got better and i know shes gone forever now, was she my first love? Yeah... Do i know ill find someone better in the future? hell yeah, but i dont know if shes ever gonna get off my mind, The emotions are like rollercoasters, some days i dont think about her allot and some days all i do is think about her. Does anyone have similar things to share about dumpers coming back or stories of their healing? Thanks for listening and sorry for the long message 😭