starting T has ruined my self confidence

after 1 year, i have gained 50 lbs. my breasts got bigger, hips got bigger, my ass got bigger. binding is difficult due to a permanent spinal injury. i really relied on my pre-T small chest.

my face is rounder. my voice is not deeper. i got a little bit of body hair, but not more than a cis woman has. i still get periods

every time i leave the house, i get called ma'am or miss. i have stopped wanting to leave the house entirely. i dont speak or make eye contact when i do. im ashamed

my doctor claims my levels are normal and that the bleeding is normal. im on 0.3 injected. i feel completely broken down and hopeless