I’m fighting loneliness after the death of my husband- and it sucks- thinking of moving- because apparently I will always be “the widow”- I’m just done.

My husband died 1.5 yrs ago- our life was essentially built around friends in our sort of age group- I am 10 years younger than most in our group- I had friends my age who instantly disappeared when my husband died- it wasn’t sudden- he suffered for 2 years. I miss my husband very much, but I don’t go around crying or anything. These “Friends “ avoid me because, I guess, they don’t know what to say? I don’t know— I’m just tired of excuses. I live in a house that my husband and I loved, but I just don’t want to live here anymore. It’s not the same with out him. My neighbors are nice, but younger w kids (been in this house a long time) and I’m 66. I want to move closer to my brother, but not close , to maybe have my last chance to make a decent life alone. Meet new people- a new place- I’m just ready to stop this shunning (for lack of a better term) I’ve visited r/widows, but I’m looking for a fresh non widow point of view- I’ve done some homework, and I checked on everything I believe is important to moving (talking states here) and it appears to work. What do you think- I would not know anyone there- so I’m thinking it can’t be any worse than hoping people come around.