I'm only attracted to femcels

I (22M) truly only find find mentally ill, bitter and lonely femcels to be the only people I’m attracted to. I’m not exactly sure why, but I have my own mental issues and am somewhat lonely. And in some ways, I think I hate myself and I believe that femcels, being women who also experience similar mental problems and alienation from society and would feed into my self-hatred, makes them really attractive to me. When I talk to someone ‘normal,’ I can’t really feel any type of connection towards them or relate to them. With femcels, even though it can be quite toxic, I always feel more understood and more compatible. I even like their unkempt appearance because it feels more natural.