Putting the pieces together about my childhood and my recent diagnose of gifted

Funny story tho which I think shouldve been a flag for one of my legal guardians, but at 13 I ditched a whole group of girlfriends cause they were too dumb and superficial talking about dating while I wanted to talk about what is physics going to be like next year when we finally have that as one of our classes. I switched my friend group to one full of guys and they were better, but not quite what I wanted yet, whatever.

At 14, with ZERO knolewdge whatsoever, I managed to get to the FINAL round for High School Physics Olympics (they had the equations on the sheets, you only needed to use them approprietely). I literally remember being bored at the end tho cause we needed to take notes on observing cinematic movement (which I literally learned while reading the exam) so I deliberality left it blank cause I could not have bothered.

Everytime I need to pass an exam, I do. I DO NOT know how it feels to be let down by my brain and Im 24. I also remember using a pacifier. I remember being about 2 or 3 and choosing to slash them with my canine teeth cause that would be one of the few moments my mom would talk to me. I remember her not kissing my head and not feeling loved. I remember writing a whole letter at 5 (when I learned how to write) of how much I hated my dad cause he wasnt home enough so he shouldnt bother coming back either.

Im also always impatient cause I know I can do something in a hearbeat but everyone is so slow. I could be initiating my doctorate but im still in my masters cause people insist on having time to rest. Im always up to think logically, I have a hard time understading why everyone wants to stop in the middle.

Anyways, just putting 2 and 2 together here in my little brain. It has been fun