dear diary my drug cravings are getting to me

I dont think rehab is accessible to me at this point or even if it's what I need as I'm not an active user but I'm an addict. Even in recovery I'm an addict and always will be.

I didnt have drug cravings before but lately it's been getting to me. It's almost getting to much to bear. It feels like it is the only thing that will make this all okay and shut up the voices in my head

god help me please

or at least give me easier battles

mercy