I’m religious but I just don’t get it..

This life just feels so pointless. So much sadness, so much burden and tragedy just to die.

I don’t know if this is the right community but here’s a poem.

I can’t do this I can’t carry this cross It’s so fucking heavy Why hasn’t it crush me yet?

Did God abandon me? Did I abandon him? Do I live as a cautionary tale? Take off the veil, take off the fucking veil

This is the devils world He doesn’t need bait God, what is my fate? If my own mind is my enemy Who the fuck is my friend?

Do I live just to die in vein? If I end it, will I burn? Will your wrath churn? Will you pour your hate in to my soul?

Is this my end? Is this my fate? Bullet loaded with a 9mm handgun Too weak to do it. Cry out to God He’s doesn’t respond, only the devil is here

He smiles as he lifts the gun He laughs as he pulls the trigger The angels fought hard But the devil always wins.

Do not abandon me.

God save me.