Divorce feelings

6 months into the divorce process. Have three kids and I will pay out a lot. She’ll get the home an a bulk of K plan but I’ll keep pension.

I rent a room from someone and bounce back and forth between there and “home”. Reason for divorce is her drinking habits which have lead me to just look at her as a disgusting individual. Even tho she’s a nice person , good mom and even good wife; I gave her years to get help and she won’t even admit to her problem.

Internally I’m starting to get angry because I even tho I don’t “have to do this”, I “have to do this” for me. I want to have my own living quarters and don’t want to be away from the kids. I don’t bring them to a rented room. Maybe part of grieving process also !!!