Today

Todays been really hard. I miss you so much and I just want to be with you. Life is so weird right now and im struggling. There isn't anything that can make me comfy except you. I try to pretend that I'm okay, but I am very not okay. I just want to be in your arms, I want your fingers in my hair, to feel your lips against my cheeks, to be gently cherished only by you. How my stupid soul yearns for only you. Stupid girl all in love with someone she cant have. Stupid stupid girl giving her heart away. Stupid me for letting us become so soul tied. What I feel is like the empty from the never-ending story. And theres not a damned thing I wouldnt do to make it go away. If I knew it would help Id use all my terrible coping mechanisms, but not one will help. I feel fucking doomed. I feel like a black hole again. I have a great mighty gravity that sucks everything in only to be left with nothing anyways.