Is something wrong with me ?

Basically all the time I feel weird. It's like I'm in my eyes and I feel like I'm watching myself inside of my head. It feels like I have no control over my body and I'm constantly spaced out, I can't remember a lot either. This started in about 7th grade and became a bigger problem after I moved in with my mom's boyfriend who constantly yells and targets me for not reason. I don't know why this is happening to me, I don't feel human anymore. I want to be normal.