Would you erase the memories of your ex and relationship if you could?

I’m watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind right now and it’s been making me think about if I would do this or not. My ex and I broke up 11 months ago after a 6 year toxic and tumultuous relationship that caused a lot of damage in my life. I loved him so incredibly deeply that he could do no wrong and I’m scared I’d still feel this way if he were to come back even after all the damage he’s done. I hate that he still has this hold over me after showing how awful he is.

I honestly think I would want to forget him. I feel like I could become more stable and actually find somebody else I’m interested in long-term without comparing my feelings for someone new to the extremely strong feelings I had for my ex. I also have a habit of being attracted to guys who give the same personality type/appearance/lifestyle as him (I think I do this due to it being familiar to someone I loved so hard) but these guys really aren’t the best for serious partners. But at the same time I don’t know if I want to forget so I never forget what it feels like to become weak in a relationship and lose yourself to someone. I’m interested to see other’s POV on this.