Fantasies

Just kinda wish I could self harm all day, and then everyday somebody will come home and praise me for it, then they'll beat me up, and then they'll cut me up and pour salt and lemon juice over the wounds. We can take turns doing this. I'll go in public and people will ask why I'm bruised all over and cut up, and I'll just pretend I don't know what they mean. Oh, and obviously I'll get shot in the head. And then, I'll climb inside their body, and lay inside. Maybe I'll wear someone's skin, or eat them. The end is near. Actually, I hope it is, so I have an excuse to kill myself without feeling dirty and selfish