Mental health issues

This past year or so, I’ve been struggling with mental health issues due to a lot of personal challenges I’ve been battling. I’m debating whether or not I should get help for it. It’s Ramadan, and I’m really struggling. I understand this month can be healing for some, but I just feel more depressed than ever. I feel so alone, suicidal at times, and sometimes wish I could just sleep forever. I don’t have friends, and I just feel so lonely. I was relying on this month to help me, but it’s not, and now I feel foolish for expecting it to. I don’t want to rely on medication to feel happy. I pray, fast, and read the Quran, but I still don’t feel better.

Last summer, I thought I was finally getting better, I had reunited with someone I cared for, and I wasn’t feeling suicidal. But since that chapter ended, my depression has come back stronger than ever. It feels like every day is getting worse, and I just want to be happy, even though it might sound silly. I know people have it worse, so I feel guilty even writing this, but I would really appreciate any kind of support.