STBX started dating another man before she told me she wanted a divorce.

Almost a year and a half ago I caught her starting an emotional affair. It took about 3 months to start reconciliation. We did good for a few months, then every few months she would tell me the same thing that she wasn't happy and wanted out. Every time she said that, there was basically a list of things she blamed me for and that I needed to fix. I tried everything she wanted me to change.

Finally the Monday before Valentine's day, she told me again she didn't want to be with me anymore so I agreed that we start the divorce process. Valentine's Day weekend she went out with a friend to have a girls weekend. In the middle of nowhere where which I thought was weird. A week or two after that she moved out and then I found out she already moved on and had a boyfriend and is already thinking about having our three boys meet him.

I also connected the dots and found out where he lives and it was the same place she was all Valentine's weekend. We argued and she told me all of the typical insults like he's bigger in every way, he's a better man, he's this and that, mocking me that I'm just mad she left me.

It hurts SOOOOOO bad to try and make things work for so long with her and not give up the whole time then to just feel like I've been thrown away and insulted like she did after everything I tried and gave.

I finally broke down the other day and just completely lost it. Sobbed, cried, yelled, punched things, threw old things out of her, went crazy. I'm so frustrated that I am feeling this affected and hurt by someone that could do something like this to another person.

We are doing a uncontested divorce, I'm keeping the house, and the divorce will be almost free due to my legal insurance I'm using but does anyone have any special magic potion for me to speed time up to get over this. I'm doing good with taking care of my sons when I have them and taking care of myself, working out etc but every not and then I picture them two together and it just kills me she moved on IMMEDIATELY.

SOS HELP ME