Feeling like I’m re-living the same day

So ever since I can remember l've been like living in this same cycle. I wake up go to school, come home and sleep and the cycle repeats itself. I don't leave the house because I live in a small town where there's absolutely nothing to do. I also have never been in an actual relationship where you like commit to someone. All l've ever done was like make out with 2 guys in my entire 20 years of living. I literally don't know what it feels to love someone, i think the guys that l've actually liked was because of obsession. Back to what I was saying about re-living the same day same day over and over. Throughout primary and high school it's been like this. Last year was my first year of college and barely anything exciting happened. I never meet new guys. l went to my first ever house party and it was awful (Imk if y'all want a story time). I would just wake up really early and go to campus and come back really late and sleep and continue the cycle. This year I'm studying online and now my circadian rhythm is off. I sleep early hours of the morning till midday then when I wake up, llay in bed for the rest of the day like a damn slob and then I get ready for my lectures online which take place late in the afternoon. Then I lay in bed again until early hours of the morning until I'm really tired and the cycle continues. I can't seem to break and I resent myself for this, I don't even study, I basically free-ball my assignments and hope for the best, Imao most of the time I'm lucky but sometimes l'm not. I'm also not creative at all because all I do is rot in bed. I feel so useless, I can't ride a bike, I can't swim... like it's the basics that I can't do. I also had a weed addiction. It was like on and off but I finally quit because it made me hella slow and I was embarrassed of how slow I was 😭🤣. So yeah, I just feel worthless. And like i haven't accomplished anything good in my life because of my habits and laziness. Idk what to do atp.