My husband cheated in our home, filmed it, and I found the videos.

I was with my partner for 12 years—6 years dating, 6 years married. I thought our relationship was going well, aside from the usual small disagreements that every couple has. We had even started planning to have a child, something we had postponed due to our careers.

Then, one random day, I found videos on his computer—videos of him in our home, in our bed, with escorts. My whole world shattered in an instant. Whenever I was away for work trips or visiting my family, he was bringing escorts into our house and filming everything.

He admitted to doing this for the past two years (which probably means it’s been even longer). He never once discussed any issues with me. Instead, he lived a parallel life behind my back. On top of everything, we were actively trying for a child and he never even considered the risk of exposing me to STDs. I was lucky to test negative, but the sheer disregard for my health and trust is something I can’t process.

When I confronted him, he said he has a porn addiction and that our relationship wasn’t "enough" for him. But he never once talked to me about this and he just made the decision to go behind my back for years.

What makes this even harder is that it’s not just me who was blindsided. My entire family and all of our mutual friends were just as shocked. He hid this part of himself so well that no one suspected a thing. He acted like the perfect husband, the perfect friend, the perfect son-in-law, all while leading a completely separate life behind closed doors.

We got divorced immediately. I left everything behind. It’s over. But my anger hasn’t faded. The images of those videos are burned into my mind. I try to distract myself to move on but I don’t know how to erase these memories from my head.

If you’ve been through something similar, how do you let go of something like this?