Lmk

Let me know when you can be a friend and not a ghost. When simply saying my name isn’t crossing a line. When you can actually pick up your phone and dial my number to ask how I’ve been. When you can freely give me a hug and not carry around enormous guilt. I’ve stopped being friends with a good many people in the past 10 years from not seeing eye to eye and seeing people for who they are.. people can say what they want about me but i always give more than i take and i apologize for my wrongs even when i know i can’t make it right. I’m no angel but i know im a good friend, a good mom, a good wife, a good daughter and sister. But for some reason im easy to blame, easy to walk away from, easy to dislike. I know. I say this because I’ve done nothing to you, you obviously don’t hate me… but how is it fair that you win? Everyone forgave you. You still have all of your friends. So really, you got your cake and ate it too. I had to move and start a whole new life…with three kids. I had to work my ass off to get here and keep leveling up. In hindsight it was the best thing for me and mine. But back then, my whole world fell apart. I built this “new” life brick by brick. Idk. Whatever. Doesn’t matter. I don’t even know where i was going with this. I’m ready to have this baby and not be in constant agony.