Better luck next time

Hello

I'm just venting. My dad never really liked me. It has always been my responsibility to have a relationship with him. Im almost thirty now, so I'm an adult, but I'm honestly terrified to text or call him since it's always been really bad. It's been over a year since I've heard from him. I texted him to ask if he wanted to come to 'de gevleugelde stad' (flying city?) in my town. It's an event with street artists and stuff it's kinda cool, whatever. He said he couldn't come which is fine, but he ended the message with 'better luck next time'. It hurt. I'm angry. I've tried to talk to my friends. I know i sound ridiculous, everyone has a shitty dad, it's just how dads are. But at least their dads love them and they try. People who have a shitty dad are still better off then with a dad who doesn't want any contact or who hates you. At least they're fucking trying. It's not fair to say this. A shitty dad is a shitty dad, but i don't know.. my dad doesn't want anything to do with me. It's whatever. It's a long read already so I'm done. I'm tired.