The thoughts are winning....

I have had mental health problems before and not to long ago I almost went through with it..... I might actually go through with it this time my life is a nightmare. I broke my back in 3 places so I'm in a brace for up to 3 months and I can't stand or even sit for long periods of time without being in pain but my parents can't understand this for some reason, I've been in the brace for around a month.

They're making me start to do chores again like taking out the trash which is hard for me be im tall and I have to bend down a little just enough to be uncomfortable and sometimes painful to do I'm not supposed to lift more than 10 pounds but my parents regularly make me lift things that are more then 10 lbs.

I'm just sick of it I've tried to get help countless times but my mom just won't get me help, I almost went through with it about a month ago. The thing is that I can't to anything I want to I can't anything I enjoy, a lot of the time I'm just alone with my thoughts and it scares me........