I want to share something

This might be basic but I am still sharing it.

I have been clean from cigarettes for 5 days but just now I smoked one and I had a realisation. I was crying myself to sleep because of the pain we have in the world, about the homeless and the poor women suffering under the islam in arabic countries. Then I decided to smoke a cigarette to numb the pain, search for a quick fix, so I can escape this pain. But it did not help, I felt even more helpless after the cigarette. It also was kind of a gateway for other sins, a guy walked by and I felt the urge to ask him for his number to hook up with him ( I never did this) the desire was not mine, it was diabolical. I went home and I was crying to Jesus to forgive me and that I am sorry and please not to leave me.

The realisation that hit me is that Jesus is the only one that can give me peace and save me. Not a substance, not another person, only Jesus. I promised Jesus and Myself that I will not smoke again and not to sin again. It does not feel like a restriction, it feels empowering.

Please pray for me. Thank you and may god bless the person reading this.