Question about romantic avoidance

Hello, I'm obviously new here. I am undiagnosed but really believe I have this personality disorder, or my comorbidities (severe ocd and depression, and a phobia) create almost identical symptoms.

I wanted to ask specifically about the romantic avoidance aspect of this personality disorder and if others experience this. I have had this since I was a late teen. I crave, crave a partnership but have done everything I can to avoid any romantic situation since I was a teenager. I have never had a relationship. I saw this was a possible symptom of this disorder. Of all my symptoms, this is what makes me feel most alien. I'm not seeking to change it, I've come to peace with it, but would love to know I am not alone and hear people with similar experiences and how it affects them.

My therapist has always described my symptoms as that my brain is not trying to hurt me, it's trying to protect me because it incorrectly believes I am in great danger. Before, to me my brain seemed almost malicious, like it was trying to harm me. Now I understand it's trying to help but it is just trying to save me from things that don't exist, which causes serious problems. I saw that a feature of this personality disorder, is fear of being hurt.

I would love to read the posts here and see what I might or might not relate to, before speaking more about it to my therapist and possibly seeking a diagnosis from my psychiatrist if that's even necessary. I know my life will continue to be difficult but much of the time, I am determined to live and improve the way I live if at all possible.