How to find motivation to go through internal crisis

TLDR: how to keep on going when inner world in on fire and it's too much?

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It's tough with how many alters in crisis there are right now (around 27 alters, most of them in pain and triggered) and irl it feels like chronic pain, flashbacks, SI and panic attacks all the time.

It's hard to manage all of them being in despair (and all of that because we wanted to start a new job. Because of workplace and childhood SA and harassment history it's a big trigger, but my therapist was encouraging me to do my best).

Interviewing was already grueling, I was spending 30-40h/week programming all assignments and interviewing (in tech it's common to have 5-7 stages of tests and assignments) on top of other things going on in life. And now after all of that, getting job and start date we fell apart right on first week. This never happened to me before.

My therapist says it might be too much to start working right now so I have to go back to zero, which further frustrated so many alters and made us feel hopeless.

Any tips, even smallest ones appreciated.