Why is love so hard?

I love you so much but still we argue. I love you so much but you still think I hate you. I love you so much but you still give up on me. I love you so much but everytime shit gets hard you tell me you’re done. You abuse me, abandon me. Even though I love you more, you say you love me. Was I just the only one that stuck around? If one of your exes gave you a second chance would you take it? How do I know you’re really being genuine with me? It’s hard to tell when it feels like you hate me so much, even though you swear you love me. 😞