Vein popped in my eye

Hey guys i hope ur doing well. So lately ive not been feeling well. Im suicidal, i hate life rn, and on top of all that, im feeling intense insane rage inside of me, i argued with mom because of money, had a rage crisis episode where i was screaming, that led to a vein popping in my eye. That shocked me ngl, ive always had those crises but i thought it was because of my autism and childhood trauma. But since i finished my masters degree, being unemployed led me to feeling hopeless, but it came in waves. But i noticed that the week before my period i become borderline psychotic that’s too irritated and sensitive, my sensory issues make matters worse. Mind you ive never ever had even PMS symptoms before, only cramps, but the last months i became unrecognizable before my period. I thought that it was too intense for PMS symptoms, that’s when i remembered that PMDD exists. When i checked my cycle i saw that my period is due in 5 days which explained my mood swings irritability rage anger etc… but i don’t know if PMDD creates feelings of depression hopelessness suicidal thoughts etc or just makes them even more intense ?