Thought i could be a weekend dad, crying first night away from my child lol

I thought i could do it, 5 months in

I havent enjoyed parenthood, but why am i crying the first night without my kid. Shes taken her to her mums i thought id be ok its been a few hours shes only gone 2 nights, i dont even think i can cope.

Ffs maybe i might have to stay in a bad realtionship for my kid for longer im coping away from my kid.

Im suprised with how im acting this is the first time ive been away overnight i didnt realise how much it would affect me 😭