Is it selfish of me to want to reconnect with my first love? Would our relationship be better off if I just left it alone?

Hi! I’m 18F, and I’m looking for some advice or perspective. My first love (18M) and I were good friends since elementary school and dated for about 4 years until my freshman year of high school. I broke up with him—first gently because I wanted to focus on school, then a few months later in a much colder way, because I felt stuck and bored of the repetitive dates and texts of the relationship. I was 14, mentally in a bad place, and started liking someone else. It was a stupid and selfish move, and I’ve regretted it since. He was always kind to me, and even after everything, I never stopped caring about him. We didn’t talk for a while, but by Sophomore year we were friends again and talked pretty often. I realized I still had feelings for him. We’ve drifted in the past couple years, but recently I reached out, and the conversation felt warm—he even asked to hang out soon. I still have feelings for him, as mentioned before. I’ve realized I might want to try pursuing another relationship with him. Here’s my dilemma:

• I don’t know if he still has romantic feelings as I do or if he’s just being friendly.
• I’m moving for university after summer, and he doesn’t like long distance.
• We’re both artsy, and I’m worried about financial instability if things ever got serious again.
• I’m scared of hurting him again. I already broke his heart once, and I’d hate to do it again, even unintentionally.

Is it selfish to want to reconnect romantically, or should I just keep things platonic before things get too serious? I do care about him deeply either way, but I’m lost and afraid of doing the wrong thing. Any advice is appreciated! T_T

tl;dr: I (18F) want to reconnect with my first love (18M), who I dated for 4 years before breaking up with him at 14. I still have feelings and we recently started talking again, but I’m scared of hurting him again or making a selfish move. I’m unsure if I should pursue something romantic or keep things platonic.