How do you cope?

25 (m). In a relationship, happy by all accounts. In a steady but ultimately unfulfilling job.

I have friends. Not loads but some. I can talk to them sometimes. My girlfriend is more than I can ever ask for. She’s wonderful.

I was diagnosed with depression around 5 years ago, and have been taking medication ever since. I’ve tried to go off it but the withdrawal/just living without is too much.

I’m sorry if this post seems bleak, but I don’t know what to do anymore.

It feels like I’m down all the time. I don’t have access to therapy/counselling due to financial means, and I talk to my girlfriend about this every day and my friends when I can but it just feels so deep that no amount of talking can get it off my chest.

I don’t want to be a burden. I want to live a happy and fulfilling life. I want to be there for those who care for me and to look back on a life with no regrets.

I don’t know what I want from this but feels good to get it off my chest. Hope that some people may relate/offer some advice.

To anyone out there struggling, you’re not alone. Thanks for taking a min to read this ❤️