my mother is an alcoholic and it's ruining her life, and mine

hello, i'm 22 (F), and it's my first time ever posting on reddit.

my mother is ruining her life, and mine as well.

my mother has been an alcoholic for a very long time, i don't think i can even remember a time when she wasn't one.

since a young age, i've taken upon the role of taking care of her when she was drunk, making sure she wouldn't hurt herself, taking off her makeup or putting her to bed when she couldn't do it herself, ect.

my father wasn't a really good husband or a good father, never helped much and probably caused more harm than good. he was mentally ill as well, though it doesn't excuse the way he treated us.

like a lot of children, i tried fixing my parents' issues, putting myself in situations i shouldn't have been a lot of time. i did everything to maintain some stability in an environment that had none.

after my father died 2 years ago, i thought things would change for the better, but it didn't.

his death broke me to pieces, it was very traumatizing the way it happened, but at the same time it felt like maybe things could finally get better for us.

for a while things were okay, my mother was still drinking but it wasn't out of the ordinary. i asked her to quit, but i knew it wasn't that easy.

but for the past few months, the situation has gotten worse and worse, and worse.

my mother always had quite the temper and pretty bad moodswings, alcohol doesn't help. when she's drunk she gets vey loud, agressive and sometimes violent. i've tried talking about it with her, she knows she has a problem, she just doesn't want to talk about it, ever.

she's slowly ruining her life, spending all of her money in both alcohol and cigarettes, not taking care of her health while she's been coughing more and more as time passes, ruining all of her relationships.

she also suffers from diabetes, which makes everything 10x worse.

i don't know what to do anymore, she's all i have left, and i'm all she has left. i've been hurt by her so many times in the past, both physically and mentally and i'm exhausted, i'm slowly reaching my limits. sometimes i hate her, i hate her so much it hurts, but then i remember how badly she's been hurt in the past, how unhappy she really is and how she tried to be a good mother.

many friends have told me to walk away, distance myself so she can't hurt me anymore, let her face the consequences all by herself but i can't bring myself to let her go.

i want to believe there's still hope, that she can get help and become a better mother. i want to believe it's not too late.

but if she doesn't want to get better, what can i do ? does it mean i should put an end to all of this ? put myself first and move on with my life ?