Life is tiring

I really want to die and was trying to die through overdose but all the horror stories of waking up the next day scares me. I don’t have a gun but still want to try and commit suicide. I am so tired. I work and study and try the best I can, but it is never enough.

I thought all would be better in college but here I am not better but worse. I wanted to be away from my family but they still control me financially. I wanted some control over my life but everything I’m doing feels like it’s for someone else.

And now my health is rapidly declining and no one cares. No one believes me when I say I’m sick every other week and in constant pain and exhaustion. How do people live like this?

And I’m just exhausted. I sleep for practically the whole day and I’m never rested. I just want my life to end. Hopefully I do.