I’m really starting to get jump off building thoughts

From waiting a whole month for the interview process (obviously, still applying while waiting, but waiting 2 weeks after I followed up with the manager to finally hear back from the recruiter), to seeing scam after scam post AND getting emails from them, to hearing, “the job is very easy,” AND STILL NOT GETTING IT, to getting scolded by family, “You have to stay positive! It will help you find a position..”, I’m getting jokey thoughts about chugging bl*each.

It is bleak out there.. and then when family locks in and gets their jobs, and youre just waiting, and waiting, and waiting… you begin to feel like something is wrong with you.