40M It’s Time

I love, I love so hard. I try so hard to give so much of myself that I make stupid decisions. I’m either too stoic, or too needy. I had the most amazing woman, she’s still the most amazing woman. I lost her because years ago I sewed doubt in the relationship. She tried so hard to keep it together and work through it but it was always in the back of her mind. To the point where any little hiccup reminded her that doubt is there. She left.

Not to mention I’m facing serious felony issues that will paint the rest of my life in a bad way. I’m innocent of it, but my attorney wants me to sign some papers tomorrow…

I love you if you’re reading this. I pray that you’ll find the peace we are both craving so bad. Unless your life is totally fucked liked mine, I promise you that you can figure it out. Never lose a moment to help someone who needs it. Never forget a moment to tell someone you love them and hug them so tight. Because you may end up like me, lost in a hotel all alone with no one to turn to but a lengthy jail sentence.