I want to be killed by someone affected by abuse

I’m tired of living as someone who has harmed the lives of so many, and i’m too much of a coward to do it myself (things would be different if i had money for a gun).

I know plenty of people were abused by someone, and it sucks. I want to die, and someone out there needs an outlet for their frustrations, maybe something can happen.

I’m tired of being a monster, and there’s no way to fix what i’ve done, so please end my life, and get the satisfaction of finally ending abuse.