Tracking the lies & manipulation

I recently started to get sucked back in a little because he was being nice again, and for the sake of our kids I’m trying to not react to his behavior. I realized calling him out did no good and ended up hurting our kids so instead of calling him out I just document the incident and move on. What I have realized is astounding. In just the last two weeks, I have caught him lying & manipulating over 18 times. He’s also really good at leaving out that one important detail or switching up just one word to victimize himself. We share kids so I have to keep in contact with him, but I am going to use this list to remind myself every day that he hasn’t changed and that he refuses to change. I think he lies so much that he doesn’t even realize that he’s doing it. Or maybe that is me still trying to make sense of everything that has happened over the last couple of years. I just still beat myself up a little bit on being so blind to this for so long. I do hope one day I can stop agonizing over this. If you got this far, thanks for listening to my vent.