I’m a piece of shit

I (19m) have been close friends with my boy, Moe(19m), for over 4 years, and we’ve had our ups and downs. One day, me, him, and my best friend (18m) were smoking weed in his car just chilling, and Moe asked us what we thought of him as a friend. My best friend is an eloquently spoken person so he was able to describe what he thought efficiently. I, on the other hand, was much more faded than the rest of them and my only response was that he was stupid as fuck. Moe is relatively immature compared to us when it comes to many things so a lot of our conflicts start because of him, but the way I put it was downright rude. I called him “incredibly stupid”, “stupid as fuck”, and basically every other combination of the word, but what I actually wanted to say was that even though he makes stupid mistakes, I still love him. Though I will give myself the benefit of the doubt that I was too high to come up with anything else, they were still incredibly shitty things to say to your bro nonetheless and I have no excuse. I noticed his change in energy and mood afterwards and felt terrible. Though I gave him an apology afterwards, I still feel terrible and I want him to know that I love him like a brother and didn’t mean the things I said. Maybe this is just one of those things that take time to fix, but man I feel like a huge piece of shit. this is definitely a wake up call to become a nicer person lol. I’m still not sure about what I should do to properly reconcile with him, so any suggestions will be greatly appreciated.

Tl;Dr A close friend asked me about my opinion on him and our friendship, and I responded incredibly rudely by calling him stupid in many ways. I wanted to tell him that though he pulls off stupid things, I still love him, but I was too high to put it in proper terms. Nonetheless there are no excuses to my actions and I’m looking for a way to reconcile.