I wish i liked talking with my mom but i dont

I don't like talking with my Mom. It feels like a chore. I wish I didnt feel this way.

I love my Mom and I talk to her because I care about her, but I absolutely hate conversations with her.

She expressed that she's afraid of us growing apart and since im in college, she's more afraid. I totally get that and I want to make her understand that im not just going to abandon her.

But I don't like talking to her. I just dont have anything to talk about. My life is either boring, something I don't feel comfortable telling her about, or something she doesn't care about. I tell her about my day, but I honestly don't really care much about my own day to day life. My day to day activities mostly are just going through the motions so I can get through college. I don't really have much passion for anything, although i do try to put more effort into my life. My mom always gets really sad whenever i talk abt my life because i just dont rlly have anything going on, even if I try to pretend its going good. I have my interests like my games that i like but my mom really doesn't care. She tries to act interested but its just not really her thing.

I love her and I do try to make time for her. I watch tv shows with her even though I really don't like to watch tv most of the time. I put in effort and try to come up with conversation topics. I really do love my Mom and want to continue to be close to her but I just don't have much to talk about. I also am trying to get out of just going through the motions and actually doing something with my life but sometimes im just too unmotivated because ive never really cared all that much. Ive always sort of been unable to really care about my irl life that much. even before the i was on internet, i would daydream a lot. So im trying to care about things going on irl but i just dont really care. And I know that makes my mom sad.