Pregnant

I have bipolar 1 and found out I was pregnant about two weeks ago. I’ve gonna off my medication as recommended by my psychiatrist and I have not had any manic episodes but this depression is KILLING me. I want to keep the baby I really do, but sometimes I find myself being okay with it if I were to have a miscarriage because I am doing so unwell mentally and I’m horrified everyday of the financial aspects and how I will be as a mother. I have a small support system and I just feel depleted from working all of the time. I applied for disability today in hopes that maybe I can just quit my job and get some money and be able to nurture myself in the way that I need. Anyone have experience or advice for any of this?