Inadvertently making people uncomfortable

I just wanted to speak to other people that may understand. Im very friendly and kind but sometimes I can yell if I feel threatened, or be a people pleaser, or make TOO much eye contact when Im trying to compensate for wanting to avoid eye contact. I have full conversations with my service dog in public and because I look "normal" I often catch people off guard with my kaleidoscope personality and moods.

Im just kinda sad today, last night I didnt have nightmares and slept through the night for once and woke up feeling great but after walking around the neighborhood, *some people were happy to see me and some people obviously just didnt want to be around me. It just hurt my feelings, I want to feel loved and included but felt avoided and ostracized because of my mental illness. Like I was some creep or something instead of a good person just struggling in a neurotypical society.