I frequent a strip club

Im married and i like going to strip clubs alone. I like being a regular and having a bar to frequent. I like the atmosphere it makes me feel like im in a real life GTA 5. I like to appreciate and respect the dancers on their dancing skills and professional work ethic- I admire their talent and hustle

I live in a city where the strippers in town are iconic godlike people.

I go for about an hour a every two weeks and spend between 50-100$ on 2 drinks and tips at the rail. I go to a dive where the beer is cheap

I lie to the strippers and say my wife is cool with it but we have never talked about me going by myself, and i think she would be horrified to know i do that

She said shes cool if i go with friends but we haven’t really elaborated on it because honestly none of my friends want to go with me

The worst is i started catching feels for one of the strippers and have probably spent 500 dollars on her over the past 2 months (just to give you a picture). I cant stop thinking about her and i know it has to end

Our marriage has challenges and we are both one foot out the door. Some of our challenges surround things like communication and cultural differences.

I feel like this is a good thing to bring up but it might be seen as cheating and we wouldn’t get a chance to work through our other issues