"Is This Real? My Struggle with Reality and Self"

"I’ve been going through some experiences that are difficult to explain but have been happening for years. Sometimes, I feel detached from reality, as if I’m observing life rather than living it. It’s not forgetting things, but more of a sudden feeling of confusion where I question who I am, who the people around me are, and whether this is even real. These moments often occur when I’m talking with family, and they leave me feeling distant or almost numb. It’s as if I can’t fully connect to what’s happening around me. I wonder if this is something psychological, like dissociation, or if it’s a spiritual experience. I’ve found some resources that talk about existential questioning and dissociative feelings, but I’m still trying to make sense of it. I’m sharing this because I want to know if anyone else has experienced something similar and how they’ve understood it.

Here are some of the questions I often ask myself during these moments:

• Is this even real?
• Who am I really, and do I even know myself?
• What is my relationship with the people around me?
• How can I trust that what I’m experiencing is true?
• Is there another life or reality I’m not aware of?
• Why do I feel like I’m watching life instead of living it?

I’d appreciate any insights or similar experiences."