I don't have a good reason to stay alive, I want to be forgiving for everything.

I'm so fricking tired of living man, if you can even call it that, I'm not living I'm surviving.

I'm tired of getting abused, nothing I ever works, I'm always letting down people, I let down my family, my friends, teachers, customers that love telling me how useless I am in my call center, no wonder women hate me so much, I have never hold hands with anyone.

One time a girl was giving hugs and kisses to everyone, when she realized I was next in line she got scared and gave me a fist bump instead, one time a coworker said that she had never spent more than 2 weeks single ever since she was 14, she was 27 at the time.

As the day went on it hit me, oh my god, we actually live in different worlds, I thought people on the internet were exaggerating, I really am a piece of shit, my mom was right.

I feel so ashamed, I want to be forgiven, I refuse to live much longer, I hope someone can forgive me so I can just get the hell out of this misery that is my life.