Is this what this feels like for everyone working reconciliation?

I’m 6 months plus from Dday, about 2 months of the AP officially being out of my wife’s life since leaving their work. Working on reconciliation and being patient with her as she deals through her own emotions. I love her so very much and I’m absolutely of the mind that right now there is no option, this cannot fail! I feel like I’m standing on a knife edge and falling one way means I have everything I ever wanted but going the other way is so incredibly painful. I don’t feel like I fear death or hell right now because this is worse than that. I wish I could just grab her and shake her awake. “Come back to me, don’t you see how much I love you!?”. I know that it takes two and I know none of what I want can happen with love being reciprocated. This sub seems so anti reconciliation in everything I’ve seen and been told and I’m just looking for somebody to say that this isn’t over that there is success that other people have found.